Sunday, September 26, 2010

The Test of Time... and Hunger...

During crew break on a recent flight... I dreamed I was in an underground tunnel... impatiently walking through clusters of dazed and confused individuals stumbling around in the dark. It seemed as if I was the only one who knew where we were and what was going on, and that the objective was to move forward toward the light at the end of the tunnel!

I was terribly frustrated with all the people who kept walking into the sides of the walls and falling down instead of moving forward which was the only obvious way out... After repeatedly stepping over and around all the human obstacles on my course, I finally got ahead of everyone and was speed walking with an attitude (I admit!) when suddenly a bright spotlight came on and stopped me in my tracks.

I was suddenly in the middle of a high tech laboratory... trapped in a Star Trek-like magnetic field and seemingly on the verge of being “beamed up...” Then I heard a woman’s, soft, automated voice say: “And now you will feel the effects of hunger...” I felt sick to my stomach with fear even before the experiment began and quickly murmured,“God help me...” Then I heard a machine start up and I knew it was a time machine on fast forward... set to quickly administer the prescribed dose of hunger... Almost instantly I felt faint... then a vacuum like sucking in my stomach... before I literally felt my stomach turning inside out... then I woke up. With tears in my eyes and an ache not in my stomach but in my heart over the clear message of this dream...

...that I am indeed going through a season of extreme testing... and “the path” I am on feels at times as dark and confining as an underground tunnel... and there are many others with me in this season of testing, but sadly, many are lost and without direction... In my dream and in real life I do know the way and am clearly walking with a purpose-- intensely reconfirmed in this dream-- to feed the hungry and feel their hunger... in order to serve passionately and compassionately... and that if I am obedient to the calling and live out my purpose... I will surely pass the test, complete the course and reach the light eternal... into which the faithful shall surely be “beamed up” at the end of days...