Sunday, April 11, 2010

Something About Mary...


I have never been much of a Marian Catholic, but this Lenten Season I went through such a personal crisis that I very willingly turned to the Blessed Mother for intercession. I decided for the first time in my life to pray a Novena– nine consecutive days of praying the rosary-- for the last nine days of Lent ending on Easter eve. For over a year, I had been praying about someone in my life who had become to me the heaviest cross my heart has ever carried... tormenting me like 'a thorn in my side' as one spiritual friend put it...

So the last nine days of Lent I prayed the rosary... in both English and Spanish– since both are native to the person for whom I was praying. On the last day of the Novena, the day before Easter, I was driving in my car when I suddenly remembered the old adage, “You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make him drink.” I shook my head in disappointment at the 'hard to swallow' truth in that proverb... and turned my thoughts to something else...

That night, having prayed the final rosary in the Novena, I fell asleep...

I dreamed I was standing at the edge of a forest, in a clearing by the water... A woman was standing next to me, and we were both watching a man on a black horse stopped a short distance from the water... Suddenly the horse went crazy, kicking his front legs up in the air nearly throwing the rider off... Strangely, there was no sound from the rider who neither cried out nor made any attempt to command the beast throwing him around... The woman turned sadly to me and said, “He is not yet ready to receive the news...”

When I woke up I knew immediately it was Mary herself who had appeared in my dream to deliver the final answer to my prayers... and to confirm what had fallen into my Spirit the day before... You can lead a horse to water... even through the dark thicket of the forest in my dream and in real life... but if the rider has no control over the beast who carries him, he will never reach the spring of living water or, the Good ‘News’ as the Blessed Mother said...

As final confirmation, I had also been praying for some time for the ‘soul tie’ to be broken with this person... Today, as I was on my knees in prayer, the elastic band holding my hair back suddenly snapped, and my hair was loosed... falling free from the ‘ponytail’ it had been tied up in...

With a lump in my throat, this truth was hard to swallow, but the beautiful mystery is... Mary delivers. +++